Geography is a Diary

 

Ghosts

Oh it happened when I least expected, this time round was right

Yeah when someone said I should approach you, you took my number

 

Feeling like I’d never felt before, a place so new to me

So much more for me to now explore

 

Killed the hours drinking one-pound bottles of beer

Walking hand in hand down the main drag

A kiss without a moment of fear, this world was ours

And you told me this would last forever but I did not know how

On a cold night you just walked away from me and our world was shattered

 

Feeling like I’d never felt before, a sorrow new to me

Losing you just made me need you more

 

Took so long to heal and I walked those streets for miles in the rain

Just to see you for 20 minutes with no hope of reunion

Well you moved on, I see you got married, I hope you are happy

Now as I pass through this town there are two ghosts

Where forever they’ll remain… Feeling like they’ve never felt before

 

In a Former Life

We explored the coastal path looking out upon the bay

A waxing moon against a sapphire blue which then faded to grey 

 

Stars that filled the sky had already died / Shining bright for us in a former life

 

Laughing like I was a child as I’m swinging on a tyre

Clinging on not wanting you to stop as you pushed me higher

 

Stars that filled the sky had already died / Shining bright for us in a former life

 

Goes to show you never know what destiny will overthrow

What has been what has gone, in the light so bright that shone

And it seems we have no clue that there could be a different view

Of shining stars so far away, that we cannot see today

 

Stars that filled the sky had already died / Shining bright for us in a former life

 

Summer Nights

It was always good to see you on those summer nights

Not a penny to our names, thinking things would never change

Drinking ’til late with no means of getting home

Searching for a place to stay, saying we would run away

Our innocence was still not lost, we thought the world was ours

Now it seems so long ago, a whole lifetime away

 

The summer nights, the summer nights, whatever happened to our lives?

Oh take away all that I’ve gained if I can go back to that time and place, my teenage face

Oh take me back in time to summer nights

 

As the years rolled by we just got on with separate lives

Who’d have thought it’d go so fast, but then youth can’t ever last

The Stretford lads, just killing time had no idea back then

Those summer nights were summer years they won’t get back again

 

Maybe someday we will meet and find that nothing’s changed

Cause we can still get drunk in town and walk home in the rain

 

To summer nights, to summer nights, whatever happened to our lives?

Oh take away all that I’ve gained if I can go back to that time and place, my teenage face

Oh take me back in time to summer nights

 

Young and Ingenuous

You had no idea I was into you when I met you near the station

We were friends so quick, something seemed to click, I developed a fixation

We stayed at my place, and I went insane in a platonic despondency

I was dropping hints I was falling deep, I couldn’t do it more obviously

 

In a crowded bar, the penny dropped and I saw that look in your eyes

A million words all expressed at once and we were unified 

 

And the promises you made, you never planned you would betray

But when you’re only nineteen it’s an easy mistake

And the moments when you whispered those sweet nothings in my ear

I know that every word you said was intended as sincere

 

So from there on in I couldn’t leave your side and you said we’d last forever

This was nothing like I had ever known where everything just came together

And we lived the dream of a normal life, with no clue how we were to survive

We would sleep in late and self-medicate, ambition with no drive

 

Then it broke my heart when you went away yo a Scottish holiday town

Weeks had passed when you made it back and love started to drown

 

And the promises you made, you never planned you would betray

But when you’re only nineteen it’s an easy mistake

And the moments when you whispered those sweet nothings in my ear

I know that every word you said was intended as sincere

 

You tried so hard to love me but you didn’t know how

 

And the promises you made, you never planned you would betray

But when you’re only nineteen it’s an easy mistake

And the moments when you whispered those sweet nothings in my ear

I know that every word you said was intended as sincere

 

We were young and ingenuous…

 

Baby Blue

It seems so long ago, the days that you were known as the main star of the show

Fresh faced and so proud, drawing in the crowds, they came from miles around

 

Baby blue, as you got older you’ve just grown colder, just hiding right in view

And you’re blue, neon lights used to shine all around you, now all you see is black

But the day will come round for you to shine again

 

With every passing day the crowds dwindled away with no games left to play

Then in ’95 you were then deprived of a reason to survive

 

Baby blue, as you got older you’ve just grown colder, just hiding right in view

And you’re blue, neon lights used to shine all around you, now all you see is black

But the day will come round for you to shine again

 

So don’t let them say that you’re an eyesore, when you are just waiting for an encore

 

Baby blue, as you got older you’ve just grown colder, just hiding right in view

And you’re blue, neon lights used to shine all around you, now all you see is black

But the day will come round for you to shine again

 

Give the Pain, Take the Blame

And so the list goes on, faked emotion when you phoned to say we were through

But I’m still not over you, you were the answer to a question that I never knew

But now you’re with somebody else as I’m going through hell

 

You give the pain, you take the blame because you’ve driven me insane

I want you to know that as you live your fantasy to simply boost your vanity

you’ll end up alone

 

In every man you see a happy ending that never will turn out to be

Your insecurities won’t be resolved if all you do is set them free

Good looks will get you what you want, but it’s not what you need

 

You give the pain, you take the blame because you’ve driven me insane

I want you to know that as you live your fantasy to simply boost your vanity

you’ll end up alone

 

One more second chance and i’ve finally seen, that you’re inhumane

No conscience and no guilt as I walk home alone, in the pouring rain

 

Cause someone else just caught your eye and now you’re gone with no goodbye

And you’ll drag him down

Taken in by pretty eyes, faked romance and then that smile

The story goes on

 

You give the pain, you take the blame because you’ve driven me insane

I want you to know that as you live your fantasy to simply boost your vanity

you’ll end up alone

 

You lured me in and let me go

And for me this goes to show

The chase is the end game

 

Keep You Warm Tonight

It’s December but you’re still wearing skinny jeans

And black eyeliner so that you look part of the scene

Before long I am talking to you

So conspicuously your hand ends up in mine

I’m caught off guard now all of my restraint has now resigned

It seems I’m spending all night with you

 

But will I know you this time next week or will these feelings be lost in your sleep

Still I will keep you warm tonight

 

So we journey to the rough and ready part of town

The bars are closing and the drunks are all stumbling out

As we wait on the one eighty four 

To a sleepy village in the middle of nowhere

There are coal fires burning in the frosty air

And we kiss under a starry sky

 

Will I still know you this time next week or will these feelings be lost in your sleep

I’ll still keep you warm tonight

 

When we awake in the morning your house is cold as you sneak me out

To catch a train at midday, it is clear what this was about

 

And I won’t know you this time next week

‘Cause all those feelings were lost in your sleep

But still I kept you warm that night

 

And this cuts deeper than I ever thought it would

Radio silence on all channels, it’s understood

Silence is always understood

 

A Moment Lost in Time

Here many years ago we put footprints down

Moments have been and gone since then, all secrets were kept by this town

 

This is the place where I still see your face in ghostly shadows cast right here in the past

 

So now I press replay; a rush to make the train

You were too late, I took the blame, the echoes still now remain

 

This is the place where I still see your face in ghostly shadows cast right here in the past

A moment lost in time is all we left behind, what could never last is stuck here the past

 

Now I’m here alone

 

Far out of Sight

The city is still, the bars fall silent

From a single window a light goes out

Streetlights reflect on the pane

And the only sound heard is the rain

 

A bond has been broken tonight as you are far out of sight

 

Promises of summer are forgotten, they don’t mean a thing

Now I’m so out of context, clinging to spring

And I never thought that you could do this to me

With all that we were and could be

 

A bond has been broken tonight as you are far out of sight

 

So did you hold him the way you hold me

As you came to terms with the lies you’ve told me

 

A bond has been broken tonight as you are far out of sight

 

Wilderness

Every choice I made it came to this

Every opportunity I missed

All the words I wish I would’ve said

I tried to speak but I was filled with dread

 

Miles and miles of empty space is all behind me

There’s only darkness up ahead

Lost in wilderness I call but you can’t hear me

I’ve gone too far now on my own

 

Everything was perfect long ago

The summer of my life and I didn’t know

Passing time can turn a life around

The ticking clock it never made a sound

 

Miles and miles of empty space is all behind me

There’s only darkness up ahead

Lost in wilderness I call but you can’t hear me

I’ve gone too far now on my own

 

Where do I go onwards from here?

I need directions can you hear me

I’m chasing resolve but the world don’t revolve around me

 

Miles and miles of empty space is all behind me

There’s only darkness up ahead

Lost in wilderness I call but you can’t hear me

I’ve gone too far now on my own

 

Second Chance

When we are young we think we know it all

We have it all planned out

But I’ll be the first to say I’ve made mistakes

When I have been in doubt

 

But from the haze comes clarity

If you just add time

All the regrets we had, every “should have”

Each self-convicted crime

 

But there is always a second chance

So don’t let pride hold you back in fear of attack

We can learn from the past

Yeah there is always a second chance

There is always a way to right yesterday

With no price you need to pay

 

Sometimes it’s hard to see that you possess

Everything you need

When there’s an endless list of all the things

You tell yourself you want

 

And I conclude that everything of worth

It takes a little work

We may lose sight of this if that persists

We end up getting hurt

 

But there is always a second chance

So don’t let pride hold you back in fear of attack

We can learn from the past

Yeah there is always a second chance

There is always a way to right yesterday

With no price you need to pay

 

So what do you say?

Pageant of a Happening

I Was Wondering

I’m lay in the bed where you were next to me / The rain it taps the window, reminding me
If I were to turn around in the night / An empty space is all that’s there where you laid

I was wondering what you’d say / If I said “would you be mine?” / Would you call me yours?

There’s strong winds forecast through tonight / I lie awake, hoping the roof stays on, hoping I will sleep
The world wouldn’t be as bad if you were mine / If I could find the words to say, I’d stand a chance


Get It Right

Leaning out your skylight, a sea of orange floods the streets, you pass the lighter
There is no place at all where I would rather be tonight as I exhale the smoke
We may have no money but stronger than we’ve ever been, we get by scrimping
Talking of what we’d do if we should win the lottery as we wait for the bus

This is our time / This is our city / And you’re the one / Don’t ever let this change
Stay by my side / We got a good thing / Lets get it right / Don’t ever let this change 

Now the winter has gone I spend a week or two with you, it feels so natural
Summer walks and your friends to waste away an afternoon, and nights to share with you

This is our time / This is our city / And you’re the one / Don’t ever let this change
Stay by my side / We got a good thing / Lets get it right / Don’t ever let this change 

And I could stay here forever, with you, with you
And someday soon I’ll be earning enough to see plans through

Unconditional

Oh it means so much to me you know, that you came to me cause you were down
That you felt you needed me tonight, well, that’s why I’m here

And there’s nothing that you could say to me that would change the way that I feel for you
And I’ll stand by you, if you’ll stand by me I’ll be here, this is unconditional

I could never judge you please believe, whether you pass or fail don’t mean a thing
Cause I fell for you as you are, deeper than you’d ever know
I have heard that love is blind and well, maybe that is true, but I see you
And I see a future for us both, and you say you see it too

And there’s nothing that you could say to me that would change the way that I feel for you
And I’ll stand by you, if you’ll stand by me I’ll be here, this is unconditional

Always knew, I always knew since I first saw you
This is it, this is it, somehow it’s meant to be
You are perfect to me

Concrete And Bright Lights

Concrete and bright lights
A shared history within these streets
I'm on my own, you’ve left it all behind
A future always there but I ignored the voice inside

Stepping out of your house
In summer; it was thirty celsius
I heard the cooling waters of a stream in the heat so dry
For a moment it seemed that everything was fine, It was fine

September came around so fast
Yes I knew that summer couldn’t last
You were chasing the sun going east all on your own
All as planned, but I just couldn’t be alone

Rainclouds they rolled in
When summer took its final bow
And our plans were flooded then and there
There was nothing we could do
There was nothing

Lullaby

I’m lay here in silence, you’re fast asleep
I’ve never felt this loved despite our fears
But I know this can’t last forever now
The best thing, to happen to me was you
Your life has now begun, so much to prove

And now I know though my love still grows
That you can’t stay by my side
I guess that it’s time to let you go now
I don’t belong here

We had the, the best times, I won’t forget
And every last minute I don’t regret
But our time has come to an abrupt end
But even though it’s my last night with you
Tomorrow the world will keep spinning round

So have a good life, be all you can
And I’ll be so proud of you
Go out and find someone to love
As much as I love you

I’m lay here, heartbroken, falling asleep
And I’ll dream, that I am, holding you near to me

Please Stop Talking
Walking, walking endlessly / Searching, searching on these streets
As night begins to fall, I try to avoid taking your call / Coz I ain’t got the strength tonight
I have said what needs to be said / I can’t turn around now  
Can’t take back the messages read / I’ve got to stand my ground

Please stop talking because I’m just broken
I can’t take the pain of all this, now our time is up
And there's no blame to place here and though I'm the bombardier
I guess it had to end here, now our time is up

You say, you say, it can be / Good like before, and maybe
But now it's too far gone, and it feels like we're different people / To those that we once used to be
Even if I had second thoughts / I cannot be swayed now
Can’t take back those messages sent / There's no other way

May As Well Be Strangers
It’s times like tonight I miss you the most and nobody knows
All of my friends were here as I host all on my own
We used to dream of a future together
Now I dream on my own

I don’t want somebody else’s arms around me tonight because
There’s nobody else who could take up your place, I just need you here with me

I don’t wanna dream anymore, when I do it’s only of you
You’re still in control, you don’t even know just what I’ve been through
Oh I think back, you got your head on my shoulder
You’re fast asleep

I don’t want somebody else’s arms around me tonight because
There’s nobody else who could take up your place, I just need you here with me

We had arranged our shared destiny
Now it’s rewritten, never to be
And we may as well just be strangers again
We’re just strangers

Nothing’s Changed
Tired of dreaming and something must be done, but I can’t seem to reach you in the waking hours
I live in hope that all of this will stop, but you’ve moved forward and I’m stuck pining for you

I don’t know the reason I came here, I don’t know what I think I’ll find
Life continues the same for you in the place I left you and nothing’s changed

A slight reminder, and now I’m set off again, it’s like my brain knows better but too weak too defend
And all the words I’ve said so many times, they cannot change things cause they’re stuck in my mind

I don’t know the reason I came here, I don’t know what I think I’ll find
Life continues the same for you in the place I left you and nothing’s changed

Set me free, set me free, erase these memories
Or come on, yeah come on, you can save me

Years Are Shorter
You’re like a bombshell I don’t want to disturb, but the more I’ll leave it, the more likely it’ll hurt
You’re like a road that moves, constantly out of reach, no matter where I’m at, you’re miles away from me

I swear that it is true. years are so much shorter without you
You can roll the years away, someday I’ll come back to stay

I’m just a visitor travelling from the past, nobody ever saw me, long ago surpassed
And somehow I still see opportunities, but I will pass them by cause they are not for me

I swear that it is true. years are so much shorter without you
You can roll the years away, someday I’ll come back to stay

I’m not old, but I’m not longer young and there’s no second chances as far as I know

Reunited
After all this time has passed I’m somehow here with you and 
it’s like we paused and went back I feel your arms around me
Lets not come apart ever again cause I can’t go through what I went through all that time
and now you look into my eyes and tell me that it’s true this time

Now we can start where we stopped, embrace the good that happened
to us both when we did part, the distance travelled since and
Lets not come apart ever again cause I can’t go through what I went through all that time
and now you look into my eyes and tell me that it’s true this time

Don’t go…

I look into the eyes that I’d longed to see for so long
You kiss me softly as I drift slowly into slumber

Help, I think I’m falling…

Epilogue
…Now conscious there’s nobody here next to me / The rain it taps the window reminding me
Of the time I last saw you on repeat / The scene it plays round my head, can’t sleep no more
We went for a drink before you caught the bus / No different from so many times before
We then had a cigarette and it was time / A last embrace and then you walked up the steps
The doors closed I watched you set off / Without a clue that it would be the last time I’d see you
And so ended everything we’d become / An empty space is all thats left where you were

All lyrics by D.J. Adshead. (BMI) Copyright Control.

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